Happy NEW Year World!
I didn't have a title because I wasn't sure what I was going to write. I have not written in months. I think because my personal life got screwy. I have this famous sermon of not having sex with people you don't feel comfortable being your child's parent (babymama or babydaddy). I was reminded the other day when my lil cousin said that my guy's mom would be my babydaddy. And she was right! What was I thinking? What was I and am I doing? I was with this guy last night. We both ended up at Miro's, I figured he may be there but it wasn't a concern of mine really. I just wanted to go out with my new gf (yeah I done flip da script) and have some fun. You know, show out a lil bit. Anywhew...I had decided to leave Uncle Frank in the old year. I really can't figure out why I continue with his cat. Only conclusion I have come up with is that I not only love this guy, but maybe Im in-love with him, whether I like it or not. Hell whether he likes it or not, because as I've mentioned before he likes to pretend we are not an item. I am not interested in being a closet-bitch. Many people in our circle find it quite entertaining that we don't claim to be in a relationship. Sometimes I wonder if I could be trying to conquer this relationship or am just obsessed. I dont know what's up.
I do not like feeling like I don't know. I love awareness. Last night I told Uncle Frank that ALL I ask is to be aware. There is no reason to lie or hide shit. I am very opened minded. I've dated married men for the past 7-8 years. Im used to being girlfriend #2. But now Im too old for that shit. And I need to keep in mind anyone I sleep with is a potential babydaddy, unless he is a she. lol!
I dont know how my lil 1 feels about me being with a girl, but I can tell it bothers her. Im happy. So what am I to do? I wholeheartedly understand this life is not about me, but I have harbored these feeling for far too long without action. I was curious and here I am. My grammy is married to a woman. So this isnn't too new to either of us. My mom didn't like Grammy's preference and held it against her since I was a teenager.
My life is swarming with I DONT KNOWS right now. But please believe I'm finna figure some shit out and take action. I dont know when you will here from me again, but be safe holla back!
Love. Peace. & Music!
I didn't have a title because I wasn't sure what I was going to write. I have not written in months. I think because my personal life got screwy. I have this famous sermon of not having sex with people you don't feel comfortable being your child's parent (babymama or babydaddy). I was reminded the other day when my lil cousin said that my guy's mom would be my babydaddy. And she was right! What was I thinking? What was I and am I doing? I was with this guy last night. We both ended up at Miro's, I figured he may be there but it wasn't a concern of mine really. I just wanted to go out with my new gf (yeah I done flip da script) and have some fun. You know, show out a lil bit. Anywhew...I had decided to leave Uncle Frank in the old year. I really can't figure out why I continue with his cat. Only conclusion I have come up with is that I not only love this guy, but maybe Im in-love with him, whether I like it or not. Hell whether he likes it or not, because as I've mentioned before he likes to pretend we are not an item. I am not interested in being a closet-bitch. Many people in our circle find it quite entertaining that we don't claim to be in a relationship. Sometimes I wonder if I could be trying to conquer this relationship or am just obsessed. I dont know what's up.
I do not like feeling like I don't know. I love awareness. Last night I told Uncle Frank that ALL I ask is to be aware. There is no reason to lie or hide shit. I am very opened minded. I've dated married men for the past 7-8 years. Im used to being girlfriend #2. But now Im too old for that shit. And I need to keep in mind anyone I sleep with is a potential babydaddy, unless he is a she. lol!
I dont know how my lil 1 feels about me being with a girl, but I can tell it bothers her. Im happy. So what am I to do? I wholeheartedly understand this life is not about me, but I have harbored these feeling for far too long without action. I was curious and here I am. My grammy is married to a woman. So this isnn't too new to either of us. My mom didn't like Grammy's preference and held it against her since I was a teenager.
My life is swarming with I DONT KNOWS right now. But please believe I'm finna figure some shit out and take action. I dont know when you will here from me again, but be safe holla back!
Love. Peace. & Music!
[Miss]UNDERSTOOD Mimi
